So it bugs me when they're in fluff, or when they're in something resembling a stable relationship, OR even just a "loving" relationship. Harry and Draco just don't like each other. Even when they first met in Madame Malkin's, there was animosity. Draco's a greasy sort, Harry's fucking poor. It's understandable that they wouldn't even get along then. But I do agree that there IS something that made Draco be relatively personable in that store: fear. DUH. He was fucking petrified of starting school sans friends. Can you imagine the ridicule he'd withstand? As a MotherFuckinMalfoy? That would have been a friendship of convenience, just like his "friendships" with Crabbe and Goyle. Those two are idiots who treat him like their lord. Harry would have been the third if he'd gone for that shit.
And I'm fairly certain that deep down, both Harry and Draco know that bit.
Let's flash-forward to the full-on war in Deathly Hallows. Harry saves Draco, like, what, three times? It's most certainly not because they feel something for each other, 'shippers please stop justifying from that moment, but rather because Harry Potter is moronically afraid of becoming like Voldie or stooping to his level. He's not a murderer, and he admits it in that epic argument with Lupin about Stan Shunpike. He's REALLY not a murderer. Killing Voldie --- shit i forgot how that happened REFRESH MY MEMORY PLEASE -- well that was because DUMBLEDORE told him to. Knowing that Dumblydorr had a dark past, I think, shocked Harry (obviously) but also made him realize that his god is mortal. Death, surprisingly, immortalized Dumbledore for Harry and so, Harry really needed that darkness to complete Dumbledore as a person. Naturally, finding out HOW dark of a past inevitably hurts the soul: it's disgustingly hard to find out that your hero was once the opposite of the person you knew.
Indeed Dumbledore spares Draco, having been able to kill him easily. And he proved his point ages ago against his former lover, Grindelwald. By trapping Grindelwald in his own dungeons, he assures Harry that murder isn't an option.
Harry also wouldn't be able to withstand the trauma of committing murder, his psyche is quite frail as he's proven numerous times throughout the Saga. (Can I just add that HP series actually DESERVES the title "saga" ?) As Voldemort proved many times over through the creation of Horcruxes, murder is very damaging to the soul. Being able to rip his soul into numerous pieces shows a certain strength that Potter simply does not have.
So that's why Draco lived. Not to mention that Harry sees quite clearly that Draco also has a soul: Malfoy mourns the loss of his cronies as much as Harry would mourn the deaths of his own friends.
That doesn't beget love. It creates a bond between two individuals that most certainly cannot be broken, but remember: love can break. Perhaps this bond has the potential to become "love," but it is not cause and effect. Draco is most likely conflicted about this connection in the same way that Harry is. Neither one can honestly believe that they have saved each other, and it's extremely difficult for their minds to wrap around. They hate each other, but they're indebted to each other: they owe their very own lives. That's not love either. That's confusion.
I'm certain that that confusion would suffocate them if they were to mistake the bond they share for love.
So far I've seen one good hate!sex and the rest all preach love and happiness between the two. I'll read it for now, because the authors' styles are engaging and entertaining, but I'm slowly getting very sick of seeing it.
I'm alright with people disagreeing, I think. But can you see why I'm iffy about them?
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